So I figured out that it is easy to diet if you are doing it alone. It is easy to eat healthy when you have no temptation. It is easy to break up with something when it is completely cut from your life. Unfortunately, that is really hard to do when you are breaking up with food, something that you absolutely can not live without. But is it possible for someone who was in a relationship and so completely in LOVE and INFATUATED with bad foods to still have it in their life in moderate amounts and not feel guilty? Is this feasible? Last night my answer was no.
I went to my friends for an amazing home cooked meal. I left my house mentally prepared for what I was going into, I knew my ex would be there. I had a plan, I was going to eat a small plate of the carb rich meal and stop before I was completely full. When I sat at the table there was my plate, already made and heaping with pasta. My plan went out the door as I ate the pasta and the roll. I knew it was wrong to allow myself to fall back into his clutches for that moment and I found myself making excuses to the other guest at the table as to why I had eaten my entire plate. What had I done? Shortly after a miniature snickers bar comes flying from the kitchen and lands in my lap. I wondered to myself is this a sign God? Am I supposed to be back with food? I look up to see a face smiling at me from across the room and I knew it was not a sign from God just another little temptation from my ex that I again fell into. Not a good night, I knew this would not be easy.
So today I chopped off my hair ...the new me is coming through. I told you in the start that food was like a drug like a bad relationship that is not easy to quite and I was right. I know I can do this I just have to find my strength.
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