A day late and possibly a dollar short

I know this is LATE..but I did do my week 1 weight on Monday and I am officially 2.2 pounds lighter!

146.6!!!!!!

It doesn't seem like alot but if feels WONDERFUL! It lets me know that I can do this. My week coming up is going to be really interesting because I am starting back to school and I have a whole week off to sit all by my lonesome and think about food! We will see if I can keep up this 2.2 pounds per week!

2 hour zumba class in Lynn Haven for anyone who wants to come tomorrow! Old school music like "the train" and other great old school stuff that I can't think of right now because I just got done working over 13 hours!

so for now peace out little debbies!

How can I say NO when I have snickers flying at my face??

So I figured out that it is easy to diet if you are doing it alone. It is easy to eat healthy when you have no temptation. It is easy to break up with something when it is completely cut from your life. Unfortunately, that is really hard to do when you are breaking up with food, something that you absolutely can not live without. But is it possible for someone who was in a relationship and so completely in LOVE and INFATUATED with bad foods to still have it in their life in moderate amounts and not feel guilty? Is this feasible? Last night my answer was no. 
            I went to my friends for an amazing home cooked meal. I left my house mentally prepared for what I was going into, I knew my ex would be there. I had a plan, I was going to eat a small plate of the carb rich meal and stop before I was completely full. When I sat at the table there was my plate, already made and heaping with pasta. My plan went out the door as I ate the pasta and the roll. I knew it was wrong to allow myself to fall back into his clutches for that moment and I found myself making excuses to the other guest at the table as to why I had eaten my entire plate. What had I done? Shortly after a miniature snickers bar comes flying from the kitchen and lands in my lap. I wondered to myself is this a sign God? Am I supposed to be back with food? I look up to see a face smiling at me from across the room and I knew it was not a sign from God just another little temptation from my ex that I again fell into. Not a good night, I knew this would not be easy.
     So today I chopped off my hair ...the new me is coming through. I told you in the start that food was like a drug like a bad relationship that is not easy to quite and I was right. I know I can do this I just have to find my strength.  

confession of an eat'oholic

Last night was the first time I almost slipped and it has only been 3 days. I think to myself how can I be so weak! I just ran to K-mart for some toilet paper but yet it seemed that down every isle there was Little Debbie waving at me saying "Hey don't you want me to come hang out with you, noone will ever have to know" It took every bit of self control I have, which seems to be more than I thought I had, because I didn't buy anything but my TP. I really feel as if everywhere I look there is something bad staring me in the face....even my grilled chicken Caesar salad, which I found out today has 650 calories BEFORE the dressing! WHAT!
It is so frustrating. I am trying to keep it in my mind that I am working hard to get myself in shape...do I really wanna waste all the hard work on the taste of a muskateer bar?! NO! I don't particularly like being sweaty and sore for days!
For dinner tonight : Grilled chicken skewers with olive oil and italian herbs with a side salad:) yum yum! NO dessert needed:)

Day 2: RECAP

ZUMBA!!!! Has anyone done it? If not you need to! It is fun, sexy, and you don't have to have any dancing skills to do it! Zumba with Amanda on Tuesday night at Lords Gym=Awesome! I felt my abs tonight..they said HELLO! So if you have not tried Zumba before please do. It is a super fun way to lose weight and get your cardio in and it is for all shapes, sizes, and ages. Zumba does not discriminate:)

Day 2: Boredom kills....

I don't think I ever really realized that BOREDOM=HUNGER. It is like I can't keep my mind off of food. If you have ever seen that billboard with George Bush's face on it and it states "do you miss me yet" well I put a Zebra cake where George's face is..and the truth is yes I miss it! Maybe this will get easier. I have tried to keep myself busy cleaning my house, playing with my dogs, watching TV (doesn't always help because Paula Dean is cooking Fried Twinkies). Another way to keep myself occupied..BLOG about it! So blogging at this current moment is keeping me from walking out my front door and driving to Taco Bell. Thank you Blog..I owe you an inch of my thighs:)

Day 1: THE SCALE and a fresh start

Cue foreboding music...preferably the death march.....that is how I feel at the moment.
Alright the numbers are in: 148.8 as of 1600 on 08/09/10

Tomorrow the exercise and healthy eating begins...I have a feeling this is not going to as easy as it seems:)

Day 1: Its over

For the past two years I have been in a love/hate relationship with food and like with any relationship it has it's ups and downs. It was always there for me when I needed it; in times of stress, sadness, and uncertainty. When these times came up in life food would ease the pain by sending me Little Debbie, the Land of Lakes Indian girl (who has knees that fold up to look like boobs), Mr. Peanut, and who could forget the red and yellow M&M's. No matter the situation I knew I could always depend on food to send someone to make me feel better. The high was wonderful, there was nothing like eating a whole box of cosmo brownies with the sprinkles on top to make me feel better after bombing a nursing school exam. Soon though I realized that it only made me feel better for a little while, and than I felt even worse after I had given in to food. But than I would run right back to it, like a drug and everytime I looked in the mirror I saw where it had left its mark; a new cellulite dot on my my left thigh, the start of a double chin (if I tilted my head a certain way), my whole arm flapping away when I waved goodbye. It slowly started making it to where I could not even recognize myself.
                    SO TODAY I ENDED IT!
It was hard and I am sure like any bad relationship I will go back at times. But right now it is time for me to take back over control of my life. So join me as I blog about my struggle to control my appetite, workout and get my life back (not to mention my skinny jeans). A complete LIFE CHANGE!
       Please feel free to share your stories, my goal is to inspire others who are struggling with the same one way relationship with food. I want to save the world one 26 year old overeater at a time, starting with me.